For if we go on sinning deliberately after receiving the knowledge of the truth, there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins, but a fearful expectation of judgment, and a fury of fire that will consume the adversaries. Anyone who has set aside the law of Moses dies without mercy on the evidence of two or three witnesses. How much worse punishment, do you think, will be deserved by the one who has trampled underfoot the Son of God, and has profaned the blood of the covenant by which he was sanctified, and has outraged the Spirit of grace? (Hebrews 10:26-29)
Under the new covenant, we are transformed through the knowledge of Jesus. Sacrifices in the old testament would only cover unintentional sins. Israelites who disobeyed the law in full knowledge of the existence of that law could be sentenced to death. But I know that I often disobey God’s laws although I know what they say. Or rather, under the new covenant, I am not acting in accordance with the will of God. Sometimes I dismiss this disobedience as imperfections that have not been fully corrected through the process of sanctification. But I think the issue is deeper than that. In the days of the law, if I did not know about the law, my sin would be considered unintentional. The new covenant is based on a knowledge of Jesus instead of the law. If I am not obeying His will, it is because I have an incomplete knowledge of Him. This knowledge is more than just knowing about Him in my head. It is a knowledge that deeply convicts my heart, mind, soul and spirit. I am sad for my disobedience, and the only solution is to run to Jesus so that I will know Him more fully. Father, when I disobey you, please teach me more about yourself so that I will not displease you again. I am sorry for intentionally running away from your will and ignoring your voice. I want to know you fully so that I will not disobey you.